Curiousity: The Conqueror

CreativeLIVE was an experience that truly shaped me as I begin my journey. To get on stage in front of viewers and share my fears, and my fears about fears was exposing and raw. And I couldn’t have loved it more.

I received feedback after the show that put me over the moon and opened me up to what my words meant to people. So I wanted to open up about what their words meant to me. Bravery was one reaction that jumped out at me, and it’s probably one of the best compliments that could have ever been paid. And of course it got me thinking and led me to this quote:

Curiosity will conquer fear even more than bravery will.

 -James Stephens[1]

 Speaking about our fear-driven decisions was the goal of my discussion, and by conquering my own fear of sharing my own words; I became brave in the process. And I guess that’s how it works, isn’t it? You’re afraid, and then you do, and then you’re brave—Just like in fairytales. The beauty of reality, though, is that you don’t need to succeed in order to be brave.

You just need to do.

So this quote by James Stephens, part of his book The Crock of Gold, refers to the main characters going on a supernatural/ethical quest to find a pot of gold. Which, of course, isn’t what the story is really about at all. And that’s not what this quote is about, either. And that’s not what conquering fear is about, either. And that’s not what bravery is about, either. None of those are about the pot of gold at the end, but they’re about the journey that takes you there and the lessons you learn along the way.

So I guess curiosity killed the cat and conquered fear. Way to go, curiosity!

Maybe I’m being modest or maybe I’m ashamed to admit I am in fact brave. But I don’t feel brave at all—I simply feel curious. Because if you were in my head during the class you wouldn’t hear bravery—You would hear second-guessing. And to me that doesn’t feel brave; it just feels like curiosity battling reason. Lucky for me, curiosity won that battle. This time.

[1] Stephens, James. The Crock of Gold. N.p.: n.p., n.d. Hathi Trust. Hathi Trust. Web. http://babel.hathitrust.org/cgi/pt?id=njp.32101068603685;view=1up;seq=11.